I don’t wanna touch you too much baby, ’cause makin’ love to you might drive me crazy…
A lot of events have occurred since last I wrote; I’m not seeing Michael (from C-Bus) at all — just didn’t work out. I passed my soc. class w/ a D woohoo. I’ve been spending copious amounts of time with Myke Weber 
It’s a long sordid tale from Thanksgiving up to today and don’t wanna try to recount the entire thing; but he and Caitlin broke up (yay!!!) which left me to be able to swoop in and get him even though we’re not officially together (boo!!!).
He was trying to make room for me in his car on New Year’s Eve when he went to Buffalo to his brother’s house (aw! ) I didn’t end up going but it was okay; New Year’s was better than the last three put together and I still saw him the next two daaaays lol 
<3
Last Saturday I hosted a Tequila Night over at the Klemm’s house and it was great. I was really, really drunk; I’m almost a little embarrassed by how drunk I was. I hate having to be taken care of in some way or another when I’m drunk :/ I think I was hanging on Myke all night which I’m really annoyed with myself about but I guess he wasn’t phased by it since we’re still talking everyday haha
He started class on Tuesday, on top of having to work, and has had car troubles the last few days, all three of which suck because our plans to get together this week have fallen through numerous times, including tonight 
I’m gonna get super busy as soon as I go to class Tuesday, probably until the end of February. But hey at least it’ll give us new events to chat about
Oh! I might be getting my job in the Financial Aid office back! I stopped in to say hellooo to everyone the other day and Anissa (my former boss) asked if I was looking for a job still. She said they might be opening up another position but are still talking about whether they can afford to do it; I told her I’d have to see if my mom was okay w/ me actually working this semester (which sounds really lame but if you recall how horribly I did last Spring you’d understand why I needed to focus solely on school) and it turns out she is ‘as long as i think i can handle working on top of being involved in the play, etc’ …I emailed Anissa and told her to count me in when or if there’s a job available 
If I do insanely well this semester (all A’s and maybe a B lol), I’ll probably be moving in w/ Kelsey next Fall Her roommate is going to Italy to study abroad for the semester so her room will be available. After she comes back, the three of us, and possibly Lauren and Kelly, are gonna try to move into a house somewhere on campus. It’s definitely something to strive for this semester lol I need to get out of my house and on my own. Seriously.
Sooo Lana and I have Art History II together (MWF 11-11:50) woot! As for the rest of my schedule, I have Drawing I (MW 2:15-4:45), and Life on Planet Earth (TR 2:15-3:30). I also have my practicum hours whenever I get those scheduled (hopefully I can do them either in the morning TR before I go to my science class or after AH-II on Friday–like all 4 hours at once or something) as well as doing shit for Oklahoma almost everyday.
Christ I’m never gonna see Myke ^^ haha :/Nahh I’m sure we’ll figure something out…at least, I hope so!
Well I think that’s all for now ladies and gents…
Bored…
Scorpio woman profile – personality traits & characteristics
Mysterious, passionate and self confident, the Scorpio woman will know all your secrets before you know much, if anything, about her. What she doesn’t learn from you directly she’ll pick up from reading between the lines, and before you know it you’ll realize she’s in control of the relationship, all without seemingly lifting a finger.
Scorpios love emotional intensity in all forms, and have enormous inner strength to handle anything they may find. Good, bad or ugly they savor emotions, and in many ways are the most ‘human’ of all the zodiac signs for doing so. Highly jealous, intuitive, mysterious, obsessive and compulsive. This is a powerful sign; dark, moody, ‘real’, and infinitely sexy.
Uninterested in the shallow or superficial, your Scorpio woman will have an immense curiosity, so if you have secrets to hide then you’re best off steering well clear, as she loves both keeping and uncovering secrets.
Scorpios are very skilled at relating to others, and as such can be very good friends and emotional healers. It’s a one way mirror however; highly secretive, covert and subtle; she will prefer to not let others see what’s really going on inside herself.
To go off at a slight tangent for a moment, it’s interesting to note that the scorpion is unique among the other zodiac animals in many ways aside of the obvious poison/sting. For example, it’s capable of killing itself in preference to being killed, is nocturnal, photo-phobic (a ’sixth sense’ used by spiders etc to avoid predators – they pick up on the tiniest changes in light and dark to detect movement before they can see it), they also shed their skin multiple times in a life cycle. All of these have direct parallels with Scorpio behavior and personality.
Scorpio woman as a lover
This is a woman who will expect to give and receive 100%, and have a personal skill set ideally suited to making sure that happens. If you aren’t ready to commit to someone on that level then this sign may be best avoided. On the other hand if you want a sensual lover who wants your body and soul and isn’t afraid of what they may find then these are the ultimate.
Due to this, Scorpios are more likely to have relatively few, but highly intense relationships. She is beyond loyal, and will do anything to protect those she loves. The flip side of this is the near legendary Scorpio vindictiveness; ‘forgive and forget’ doesn’t apply to Scorpios.
Almost inconsistently, your Scorpio woman will want more personal space than many signs do. This is partly due to her private nature, and partly because every experience must be carefully analyzed and the precious emotions absorbed and savored.
Scorpio woman sexuality
You can call Scorpio women many things, but prudish or unsexy will never be one of them! They exude sexuality, have healthy imaginations and aren’t afraid of experimenting. Scorpio rules sex and death, and like many other aspects of Scorpio compatibility they face both head on.
The only possible negative is a potential censoring of feedback, so you may not always know exactly what she likes or dislikes. As with other areas where Scorpios appear secretive this is partly to keep a ‘clean page’ upon which to maximize and enjoy their partners emotions.
Scorpio women gift Ideas
You can’t go wrong with either a musky perfume, or sexy lingerie. Jewelry is less likely to impress your Scorpio woman, as she knows she doesn’t need it in the same way that other women do. On behalf of all red blooded males I’d really urge you to go with the lingerie!
Using astrology to really understand a Scorpio woman
It’s important to note that we’re only considering a persons sun sign in this article. There are many other planets which can have an equal or greater effect on their personality. Makes sense, as ultimately everyone is of course unique.
Your own personality is also a significant factor. How you see someone, and how they see you is a matter of personal perspective. It’s why you may think someone is wonderful, while your friend can’t see it.
To fully understand someone or how compatible you are with them (the two are ultimately the same thing) we need to calculate those other planet placements from their date of birth, and compare them to your own, and then interpret the results.
This unlocks the real power of astrology, and gives much more useful and specific information – everything from how they view you, how to turn them on, how to avoid arguments etc.
This explains sooo much about me…
seriously.
You got the key to my heart but you ain’t gonna need it, I’d rather you open up my body…
Last Saturday night was amazing Thanks again to everyone who showed up; i hope you enjoyed yourselves as much as I did!! To those of you who didn’t come, you missed one hell of a party :p There was a good mixture of people here; new and old friends and some people I’d met for the first time that night (Kori’s friend Maggie, Michael’s buddy Dan, Kelsey’s roommate Vanessa, Mike G’s friend Josh, and Sarah’s boyfriend whose name is escaping me right now lol).
My ladies were here from their various residences throughout Ohio Some of my Kent people showed up (Leah, Chantal, Kelsey, and Sarah) which was awesome I had to go pick up Leah & Chantal from Verder at 8:00 and as soon as I pulled out of the parking lot Chris called me to tell me he and Rosie were at my house (oops lol) and when we got back, Danny and Joey were downstairs talking to my parents :p
Michael showed up! He’s not dating that girl anymore (yay haha) and is kind of sort of possibly dating…me? haha Seeing him made my heart soar out of my chest and I had a ridiculous smile on my face all night :p He mauled my neck again after we went to bed lol It wasn’t nearly as purple but it there was def. more visible ‘damage’ lol My dad saw it this time and said Michael sleeping in my bed w/ me was ‘unacceptable’ and he’s been weird since then. However, he liked Michael and thought he was a ‘nice kid’? haha So I guess that’s good
He’s completely enamored of me and I love it haha It feels great to be adored for more than 5 seconds by someone I actually want to be with lol We’ve been talking a lot more than we had been and it’s sooo nice I was afraid that despite the fact that I want to talk to him I wouldn’t have anything to say to him. But I do…for the most part :p lol
Oh small ‘interesting’ tid bit, Jack texted me the other night to say ‘happy bday a few days late’ which surprised the shit out of me lol
So Monday I woke up w/ a really sore throat (but only on the left side), went to College Writing then to soc to take my test and ended up just going home bc i felt worse. Got up the next morning still feeling crappy–really warm, skin hurt, throat swollen; went to Makeup only to get sent home by Suzy because I apparently looked as awful as I felt lol Didn’t stop me from making a trip to Pizza hut w/ Danny though haha I went to the doctor yesterday afternoon, could barely talk, had a fever of 99.6 and tested positive for strep throat. Awesome. I’ve been home today too even though I’m not nearly as bad off as I was.
I’m sooo far behind in my wig class…and i have to write two freaking papers for my writing class by Monday, as well as make up the hours i missed of my practicum within the next three weeks. I finally got my grade back for my soc. test…62%. FML. It’s not an F though so that’s a relief. I’ve still got a 64% D in the class so as long as I pass the final I’ll be good to go. It’s the only exam I actually have which is really good. It’ll give me time to get everything done, as well as next week when I only have to go to class Monday & Tuesday
I have to finish my freaking scheduling for next semester. Like an idiot I forgot to go talk to Suzy so I’m only signed up for 6 hours at the moment (Art History II and Life on Planet Earth). I’m only taking 12 hours again just so I can keep my shit together and pass everything the first time :/ Oh! I’m going to be an assistant to the designer for ‘Oklahoma’!!! You all better come see it!!!!
Last Thursday (my actual bday), my parents, my sister, and I went to the Cheesecake Factory for dinner and OMG it was amazing I had the Chicken Costoletta (3 huge pieces of crispy breaded chicken in a lemon sauce w/ a gigantic mound of red skin mashed potatoes and 6 stalks of sauteed asparagus) and Chocolate Mousse Cheesecake for dessert. Mmm! I ordered a Strawberry Martini and it was alright for the most part but my head was swimming half way through it before our appetizer even came out haha I wish I had gotten a Dirty Martini like my mom bc it was freaking delicious (vodka + olive juice w/ bleu cheese-stuffed Spanish olives) :p We were there for a long time and we didn’t even have to wait to be seated Best dinner outing EVER. W/ my leftovers I had lunch AND dinner the next night. It’s too bad the closest one to us is in Beechwood :/ But then again it’s probably good, otherwise I’d want to go there w/ people all the time and that place ain’t cheap that’s for sure even if it is worth the $$$
I think that’s enough for now…bye
It’s a quarter after one, I’m a little drunk and I need you now…
One more week ladies and gents, and I will be 21 years old I’m getting excited about it now; there’s was a brief period of time not too long ago where I started to not really care about it at all, even though I had juuust sent out a party invite :/ lol But I’m over it haha I’m ready to get my drink on at my own house with all of my wonderful friends and family
Thursday night I’m going to dinner with my family to the Cheesecake Factory (yum!) We’re going there instead of Ray’s Place for the night w/others since I need to be able to go to my Sociology review session the next day (I have a test Monday :/ bleh) I’ll be studying all night Friday (and Sunday…ughh) then Saturday night there is going to be a (hopefully) massive party/bonfire at my house
I can’t wait for RENT to be over. It’s not that I don’t like the experience, I just don’t have anything to do 3/4 of the performance and honestly, I’m tired of listening to everyone’s vocal imperfections through the monitor backstage. It’s mostly because everyone is or has been sick. I feel like it could be so. much. better. It wasn’t even that great during tech week. I think opening night (and tonight…kind of) was the only solid performance where everyone was on the A-Game and kept up with the music and was on key the entire night. Now all I can do is grimace at the horrible notes being hit by the leads. Ugh. Only two more days…
If you wondering if I want you to, I want you to so make a move…
Well Jack and I are good now for the most part. We talked this afternoon and we’re gonna keep talking/getting to know each other after all without the romance (or at least “we’re” gonna try). I’m glad I took the high road on this one. I could’ve been a total bitch to him this afternoon but instead I told him:
‘It’s a shame nothing became of us but I just wanted to let you know I’m cool with it and I’d actually like to continue getting to know you that way you’ll know where to find me when I’m 36 (inside joke)’
he said ‘you’re a good gal I’m just figuring out what to do with myself these days’ (figures I’d get that speech :/ )
Then I said ‘I get it and it’s totally fine. It was just bad timing that’s all sooo I say we continue to get to know each other w/out the um ‘benefits’ aspect :p I can behave myself when I need to lol‘
From then on it was just idle chatter. Turns out he was a werewolf for halloween!! DAMNIT! haha I told him he ‘would’ve been the perfect accessory to my Selene costume; btw it would’ve made you lose your mind :p skin tight vinyl ‘ he def. liked that idea haha
::sigh:: Oh well. In the mean time I guess I’m even free-er to see whomever I want more than before
Now if only there was someone for me to see…
On a bed of sweet surrender where we can work it all out, so come a little closer baby…
Things with Jack are over. They ended just as quickly as they started. It sucks but that’s alright I guess. He became a little too “busy” over the last week or so. He must not have liked me as much as I thought since I didn’t do anything to make him act that way. I kept the texting to a minimum and only did it every few days and only called him once or twice over the last few weeks; I was ridiculously cool about whatever was going on between us. I did get pissed at him the week before because he was kinda jerking me around when it came to trying to get together. We finally did see each other after a week (we hadnt had an actually conversation since then either) but a half hour before we actually got back to his place he tells me he’s playing poker with his roommates. I haven’t seen him since then but I AM going over there today. It’s only to get back my X-Men cartoon dvds that we never watched lol I’m rather annoyed with him yet again because last night I asked him if I could stop by and get it around 4 he said sure and then this morning he sent me a text saying he ‘won’t be around at 4 but it’s on his porch’. I texted him back saying ‘I figured you might do that…’ Apparently he has class until 4:45 :/ He couldn’t have told me that last night instead of making me think ‘wow he really doesn’t want to see me anymore?’ Ahhh! Fucking…boys!!! GRR!
I tried to hang out with him last Monday and Tuesday before I went to RENT rehearsal but had no luck either day. Last Thursday after asking him if I was ever going to get him all to myself again some night he said ‘I don’t know I’m moving around’…
I still don’t know wtf he meant by that. That night I asked our friend Matt if I was wasting my time trying to be anything with Jack and he said yes. At first I was pissed, then disappointed that I have yet another failed romance under my belt :/ The thing that sucks is that I’m still somehow the tiniest bit attracted to him; I would have loved to continue to get to know him but now I don’t (completely) care either way. If we still talk great, if not then it was fun while it lasted. I mean I didn’t exactly see myself marrying him; I didn’t get that aroused, full body tingle whenever he would kiss me either, even though I still liked when he would do it :p haha
What can I say, I love to be kissed by attractive boys More importantly I love being kissed by boys I’m actually attracted to and even more than that…I love feeling wanted…
Speaking of, at Mikey’s Saturday some guy dressed as Kelso from That 70’s Show kissed me while I was trying to go to sleep at 4:30/5:00 And before that some other guy asked me if I would marry him haha
Halloween was definitely better than last year but I only took two fucking pictures (I’m not in either of them lol) and I was barely downtown :/ If it had been warmer out I wouldn’t have minded walking around longer but I was bloody freezing even in my sexxxy vinyl suit :/ I had a really good time at Mikey’s though! I loved hanging out with all of my boyfriendssss (one of them a bit more than others haha) and Lauren + Reba
I drank the last 1/4 of my sangria from a few weeks ago; I was feeling extremely good + wasted I stayed over at Mikey’s and had to walk back at 10:30 AM to my car…which was parked at MSC lol
Last weekend at Kamila’s was alright; I’m glad I got to see her and hang out + dress up in my awesome Underworld costume I looked (and felt) so hotttt, if I do say so myself. I heard it plenty the last two weekends as well I wish Jack (and Mingles) had seen me Saturday night :-* haha In Columbus I got hit on mostly by creepy dudes, one was kinda cute but I wasn’t interested; I had Jack on my mind the whole night :/Michael was there too; Kamila was a little annoyed with him because I guess when she told him I would be there he was all excited and then he showed up w/ some other chick w/ some familiar looking monstrous dark purple hickeys on her neck :p At first I kinda cared but then I figured if anything it helped me behave myself since I was still a little unclear of my relationship status when I went down there lol
One guy at the party w/ a huge disgusting boil on the side of his forehead who didn’t even know Kamila or Mars (he came with a friend i guess) would not go the fuck away; when i went outside for some air he followed me which was really fucking annoying since I was mostly trying to get the hell away from him. Then he tried taking my gun out of the holster (I made it out of a sock :p) and i almost turned around and punched him to get him the fuck away from me. UGH! He’s still giving me the creeps just talking about it right now, ick!!!
Okay I think that’s enough for now…
Do you just light up at the mention of my name?…
So you’re all going to think I’m insane but I’m seeing someone else now. I met him about two weeks ago at a frat party I went to w/ Leah and some other girls. He was “dragged there” by our friends Matt and Pat; he doesn’t usually like going to frat houses since he doesn’t drink often or hang out with/talk to the frat guys or anyone else there, just like yours truly :p We sat out on the deck in the cold and talked the entire night (til 2:30), he asked for my number/to go out sometime, texted me that night while I was on my way home and asked if I wanted to go out the next night, which we did
He picked me up and met my mom (my dad was at Stow’s homecoming game when he showed up) then we went to see Zombieland at Kent (really funny ), dropped his car off at his place, met his roommates, walked downtown to the Firefly and ran into all of my boy friendsss (Chris Parker, Chris Slekovitch, Jim, Mikey, Cody, MB, Dan, John — seriously, all of them lol) when we walked past the Zephyr. After that we continued on towards the hookah bar where one of his roommates works. There was a line + no one there taking names (i don’t think); I walked in like a badASS who owned the place (he’d never been there before) and went straight back to the kitchen to help him find his roommate. We were seated in the back where the employees usually hang out, got a free blueberry pancake hookah and talked for an hour or so. We walked down towards the river and sat by/under the bridge and talked/cuddled/kissed until 2 It was perfect. If the lights on the bridge hadn’t been on it would’ve made our attempt at star-gazing better lol
So yeah, his name is Jack, I like him A LOT and I’m certain he’s feeling the same way. I’ve seen him almost every day since our date, even if it’s only for a few minutes around campus He’s 20 (birthday is May 10th), he’s from Pittsburgh, lives w/ 7 other guys in Kent, watches sports, used to play baseball, History major (used to be Art Ed), Romanian/Irish/small % Native American and…part Czech!! He even knows/has had some of the food!!!! It’s a rare occasion for me to find ANYONE who is even the slightest bit Czechoslovakian I LOVE IT! haha
He’s tall (I want to say 6′1″ but who knows lol everyone is freaking taller than me; he could be 5′9″ for Christ’s sake and I wouldn’t be able to tell since he towers over me haha), green eyes, athletic build, broad shoulders, thick reddish brown hair, cute smile
I know i just said this but seriously…i reeeeally like him I have a feeling he’s about the same. He plays it a little too cool sometimes, but then he’ll say something that just makes me think ‘aww you really do like me’ haha :p
Ah i have to study; ill finish this later since i have many more interesting tid bits of news to share!
Watch the sunrise, say your goodbye’s, off we go…
So this may come as a slight shock to you all but I think I’m in love.
Obviously not real love since I barely know this guy but ::sigh:: I can’t get him out of my head and seriously, I haven’t been this excited about someone that i just met in ages :p
Okay so maybe it’s lust; idk who cares lol
I met him at Kamila’s in Columbus this past weekend; his name is Michael McFerron, 21. He’s a little different than my usual choices — when I met him he had a goth-look going on — black clothes (Hot Topic-esque) w/ a little makeup too — but it was so. hot.
HE’S hot haha He was such a sweetheart and a really good kisser He gave me a very long lap dance and then proceeded to make out with me and give me three very large, deep purple hickeys on the left side of my neck. He gave me another one when we went outside for some air lol So needless to say my neck is sore and very discolored. It looks like one of my wound makeup techniques :p
I was so fucking wasted at that party haha I was once again drinking tequila and orange juice then did shots of straight tequila then when my personal bottle of it ran out I switched to vodka lol I started drinking at 9 and was passed out by 12:30 haha! Kamila wasn’t far behind :p
Michael came in to check on me once and it was so cute; he kept trying to talk to me but Kori, and Deidre threw him out of the room (but not before he kissed me a few more times ;D ) and we lecturing him in the hallway about letting me sleep and something about making those marks on my neck :/ lol Apparently he wouldn’t stop talking about me the rest of the night I really wanted him to cuddle w/ me for a bit but the next thing I know, everyone is gone, Kori + Mars are saying bye to D and Ashley and I’m being moved to the futon in the living room lol
Sorry to cut off in the middle of my awesome story but I need to go to sleep soooo…
To be continued…
You got me beggin’ you for mercy…
So…Brian Putka IM’ed me out of nowhere on FB and a few minutes into our conversation he said: sorry but I really wanted to talk to you months ago but I get really nervous around you so I really wanted to apologize.
I had no clue what to say to that so I just asked him why I make him nervous, and he said, ‘i don’t know, I’m really not a smooth person. you just make me nervous, haha, it isn’t a bad thing though so don’t take it the wrong way’
And then proceeded to ask me out on another date, which will be taking place sometime next week. I hadn’t thought about him in quite some time and honestly, I don’t have much of an interest in him anymore, especially after the last time I saw him. My mom was sitting in the room when I was talking to him and she was like ‘Ohh that’s so cute If he asks you out you better say yes’ haha So basically I’m going on a date (mostly) to please my mother. You know, the woman who asked me a few days ago if I was a sex addict lol…
But I digress…
Friday night I’m going out w/ Kyle Pugh to see Jennifer’s Body. At first we were going to watch Sweeney Todd at his house but since I only met him once the thought of hanging out with him alone there made me a little uneasy. He called me earlier tonight. It was weird. I didn’t have a whole lot to say to him and I think he said he was high. Not a fan of talking to people on the phone who are stoned.
Saturday night I’m having a mini-bonfire and so far Danny and Lana are the only ones coming for sure lol practically EVERYONE has said ‘maybe’…Oh well lol We had a good time the other night We watched Dogma and Shaun of the Dead, made some popcorn, and ate cupcakes :p Who knows, we might end up having another movie night if we get tired of sitting around the fire.
Tomorrow afternoon Lana and I are going back to Empire to get our fortunes read with tarot cards and palmistry…I’m really excited. Hopefully they’ll tell me something about what to do about all these boys haha
Just one kiss could stop this spinning…
Turns out I’m going to be working on RENT both Kent Halloween AND actual Halloween weekends. I’m really glad Kent’s lasts all night. Leah and I decided to be Pin-up girls instead of flowers lol It’s cheaper, easier, and hotter; even though flowers would’ve been super cute and original :p If I had more $$ to do it then I wouldn’t have given up on the idea so quickly. Either that or I would still be going as a peacock :p I think I’m gonna strive to do that one next year haha But for this year I’m thinking of getting some kind of costume from Halloween USA over at chapel hill and turn it into a pin-up look.
i reeeeally wanna buy this one…
http://www.loverslane.com/images/catalog/large/8408H.jpg
If it wasn’t so expensive I totally would. The vinyl waist cincher and gloves are the best parts lol maybe i could just find the cincher and wear it with whatever i find I wish the real, whale-bone corsets (like Dita von Teese wears that make your waist only a few inches wide lol) weren’t $400+ because they’re gorgeous and make you super curvy in all the right ways
I also like this one. It’s perfect for the pin up look…
http://www.loverslane.com/Sea+Side+Pin+Up/cid=508/page_no=2/edp_no=24968/shop.axd/ProductDetails
This was the first costume I wanted to get (MB was completely behind this one haha) If I like it enough + have the $$ to spend on it I’ll def. consider it. I can still do 1940s hair + makeup
http://www.loverslane.com/images/catalog/large/5931H.jpg
That’s not the only thing I’ll be considering…
I’m contemplating telling that one guy I said I was leaning towards that I’m into him as more than a friend. I have no idea how I’m going to clue him in on that without being all ‘hey i like you and want to be more than friends; I hope you feel the same way’ I kind of DO want to just say it that way and get it out there but I don’t know. I don’t want to scare him off or anything, ya know?
Any suggestions?
